Forty-six

 Peggy,

    Venting. No. Just waiting. 

    How is he doing? We have had a lot of rain lately. Feels a bit like the Midwest. 

    Kind of venting. I haven't seen or talked to her for a week. No idea. No fucking clue. She hasn't answered her phone (voice and text), email. Knocked on her door once, but have been too scared to try again. No one likes not knowing. For me it is a kind of insanity, no sleep, not much food, constant sad movies running in my brain. Is this heartbreak? I even talk to god. Should I call hospitals, police. Don't know any relatives, all I know are names of friends. 

    Does she hate me so much?

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